BlackScarfGirl

  Dairy of a single person   Dear diary  Today I suddenly felt low, I don’t know why I feel so low but then to find my answer I started wondering what am I feeling sad all of a sudden?? Then the answer hit me that from I don’t know where the thought got stuck into my mind that I don’t have any money. I know , I know this is not a new thought as it’s been log long time that I have been living without money and still I’m alive. Surprise! But that felt bad at the bottom of my heart, it felt that you don’t have any money to get anything for myself. I can’t buy new clothes, I can’t buy she’s, I can’t buy purse or makeup or jewellery or pen or copy or any other thing if I need it. How am I surviving in this life?  I know that it’s stupid to think about all this stuff as long as you have roof or loaf of bread in your mouth. Most people will say that how stupid are you even though you don’t have such things but still you have your mother’s house where you can hide and get something to eat, and

  Diary of a single person   Dear diary Do you know how does it to live a life which is getting worst day by day??? I don’t think so, it seems that nothing good is going to happened. Why because the area where I live is getting worst day by day. Things are getting expensive every week and having no job and no money means that it’s going to get worst and worst every day. There is no one who could care or feel sympathy for the people who are less privileged and are suffering every increase in expenses but still there is no increase in value of money. It feel so depressed, the leader of my country stated in his speeches that he will do good for the poor class and lower middle class. I belong to lower middle class, he does nothing good for us, instead that he is snatching everything from our hands. He gave no jobs, no facilities in daily usages things and basic human need, food, electricity, gas, water instead he made our lives miserable and everyone around me is cursing him with every bre

  Diary of a single person   It feels nothing to be ok just because you are looking ok. The feeling of having things going in normal speed, tone or monotonous doesn’t mean life is doing right. I know how it feels to be rejected and left alone. I’m not acting as desperate to be someone but the feeling of being alone and the ones yes ones who left me are having best life made me wonder what have I done wrong to deserve such kind of life. Being rejected is like dying every time hurting cringing and crying when those feelings came and appear live in your eyes. The crying which doesn’t have any sound tears rolling out of eyes and slipping from cheeks to hands then from eyes to pillow, killing your own sound with your own hands so that no one could get to know that how badly you and your body is hurting. Such kind of feelings killed me every day and night for I don’t remember how many hours, I can’t even tell anyone how I feel, because I don’t want others to worry about me, I don’t want my f