Feelings that Hurt A lot

 Diary of a Single Person 

Do you know how it feels to be a person who suffer a lot but can’t tell someone? It feels like shivering from head to toe, a shiver which hurt soul inside the beautiful structure, which look very attractive to everyone, 

What people see from distance is a complete structure which smile, talk interact, communicate but no one know that how that structure is shaking and how pain soul is facing time and again. I know how it feels to be shivering and hearing all the noises coming from head, time and again it feels that I will crumble in pieces but I have no idea how am I breathing and surviving every day, it feels every time I die and live again just to die again. 

Whom do I share what turmoil I’m going through in my brain, who will listen to me and my sadness and suffering.  It’s been a while that I keep repeating same line in my life and it seems that every situation I went through leads me towards that line. In my life I have no one for me. Crying alone in dark not been able to tell anyone around you made me feel lonely. All I wanted to have a happy life that’s all but it seems that’s not possible for me. I’m tired to losing I’m tired of crying I’m tired of suffering. 

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