Diary of a single person
Its been long I haven’t talked to your, you have no
idea what have been going through in my mind. If I hadn’t had you my diary it
would be very difficult for me to have some level of sense in my own mind. It feels
like I am not alive, something in me is already dead. What is dead that’s not coming
in my mind, why is this happening I have no idea. The constant thing appearing
in my mind is this world is not a good place to live, I know this is negative
thought but still its still exists in my mind and it kept on circling round and
round in my mind. What if I accept this line and live with it? What will happened?
I have no answer. Tears brim up at the back of my eyes they don’t come forward;
it seems that they are drying out.
Today if felt the absence of that person whom I think
I loved the most after my mother. I wanted to see him, I wanted to talk to him,
I wanted him to text me and that text on the screen of my mobile made me smile
as if I have got all the blessings. But, no matter what I wish, no such thing
can happen in my life, all I can to is to remember those feelings alone, when he
used to see me and smile back at me, by avoiding others eyes. Things were
secret the only person who know about us was we two and God. I miss him. I really
wanted to see his face with smile and love for me in his eyes. It pinch my
heart that I can’t get all these back. Every second of my day never went by
without thinking about him. I know he would have never thought of me ever,
because he has move on in his life, because he has to obey his parents and
parents love is more important than a person like me. The couples everywhere
made me feel so lonely. I never felt lonely this much……
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