Dairy of a single person 

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From the early age I had no interest in opposite gender but to be very open they never turned into monsters. The monsters which I imagined after listening the stories told by my mother. If any of that people existed in life I would have seen it but up till now I haven’t seen any of that character. I found opposite gender very pretty, even though this is not right word to use for male gender but still I found them cute, pretty and eye candies. It’s not like that I found them in these shapes and forms regularly but when I see any attractive face, these terms automatically come to my tongue.

Living a life with females all around me made me uneducated about men their tactics, their behaviors and how to deal with them. So in order to avoid all these problems I prefer to stay away from them. It’s not like that I don’t want a man in my life. I really wanted a man in my life but the question is how to have such person in life that would not turn into a nightmare which I see around my life. Not with me but the immediate people who I see daily. Do girls living with men? I mean the girl and the boy who live together whether as in live in condition or as married couple, do you guys hate each other? Do you guys gets tired of each other? I really can’t understand how they live together. It’s very difficult to understand. I get tired of my family with whom I live 24 hours. It’s a tough thing; I get sick, gets tired of everything.

I have my own space, my own circle, in which I really don’t want anyone to enter, because that’s make me uncomfortable. It’s very strange that I love to attend weddings; I love the union of two people. But at that time I don’t think about all the troubles which come with the word called wedding. It’s a long debate but still I like people getting married. But I want to see happy couples, now the question is what happy couple is? Happy couple for me is that who don’t fight, who don’t taunt each other, who don’t make fun of each other in company, give gifts to each other often, who stand by each other at any cost, who don’t fight for shopping, who don’t leave each other in suffering. Does such couples exists????

 

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